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Your father was ninety-nine years old.
You were the youngest of twelve children he raised while residing in Mississippi.
And god, you were a pain.
Pushy, continual questioning, repetitive requests and into the ER at least every other week with the same complaint for your father.
In you would come. Always with one of your dad’s caretakers in tow.
One of three full-time caretakers. He had the same caretakers for ten years while he lived in your home.
They did a great job.
But your dad was old. Very old.
The staff thought you were crazy. They didn’t even want to get near your dad’s case.
So they assigned him to me.
Each time for the last six months.
I “had a way” with you, they said.
No I didn’t.
I just gave you the attention you seemed to crave so badly. I answered your questions.
But most of all, I listened.
The turning point came when you suggested a treatment for what you thought was wrong with your dad.
What you asked for could not hurt, so it was ordered to appease you.
And it worked.
Damn! I said, for once not watching my language in front of a patient.
I couldn’t believe my eyes as your father became alert and interactive.
Such a simple thing.
But you knew.
After that, when he would come in, you and I would look each other in the eye and nod our heads over what was happening.
I got to know your dad and how he responded. What looked right and what did not.
You had even taken steps to decrease the number of ER visits by arranging to have his ongoing issue addressed on an outpatient basis.
And it worked.
One night I came back from break to find you and your dad with his caretaker in one of my assigned rooms.
Something was horribly wrong.
One look and I knew.
Knowing your dad’s venous anatomy like the back of my hand, I inserted an IV in a most unusual spot, but I always knew that’s where I’d find access.
Your questions came fast and furious and I answered all of them. For once I was glad to be in a multi-bed room because I could be available consistently to answer your questions and I could watch your dad the entire time.
And he needed watching.
He was dying.
You didn’t like the doctor who gave you the news that this could be “it”.
You looked like a deer caught in the headlights. You couldn’t spit the questions out fast enough. You said something about your dad not being a “throw away”.
You didn’t process a single answer.
Except that you asked me directly how bad it was.
It was bad, I said.
You looked right at me and started to sob.
And then just as abruptly pulled your emotions right back in.
But it was too late.
I had seen the facade crack.
You weren’t crazy.
You were scared.
And in that one brief moment of emotional release I saw you as a human being who did not want to lose their parent. Not a controlling, off-the-wall family member who could drain you dry of energy in minutes.
You were a child who was afraid that your dad would be written off and that your obserations would be ignored.
And you fought for him. For you.
After all those visits in all those weeks…months…years, I realized your affect in the ER was a defense mechanism built after years of dealing with nurses and doctors who distanced themselves from you and would not listen or respond to what you said or what you wanted.
For your dad.
To keep from having to deal with what you were faced with right now.
Your dad was ninety-nine years old and dying.
And we had taken away the one thing that gave you stability.
We had taken away your hope.
You said he was tough, that he had fought before and he would fight again.
I acknowledged that, indeed, one does not make it to ninety-nine unless they are tough.
Things were actually better by the time your dad was admitted, with his caretaker at his side. He drank some ice water. He spoke some words and seemed less lethargic than before.
I prayed that for your sake you would have more time.
I learned after a couple of days off that you had one more day with your dad.
I wondered how you were doing.
And if I’d ever see you again in the ER.
And I learned to listen more actively when families (or patients) seem difficult or feel they need to push hard to be understood….or respected.
To appreciate the observations of someone who would know their family member much better than I would ever know them.
Sometimes you drove me crazy.
But it was an honor to be able to care for your father.