May 9, 2010, 8:51 pm

When God Closes a Door…

I would have loved to have seen just how far I would have gotten in  nursing with this “Symbol of Success”!

This looks like an ad in the back of “movie magazines” like Photoplay. Anybody else remember “Photoplay”? Or am I hopelessly dating myself with that question?

Ten weeks….

Wish someone had told me, I just finished three years!

Learn at home…

Gee, I guess they were ahead of their time where online classes were concerned!

(P.S. For the rest of you old folk that remember Photoplay, wiki says it folded in 1980 and the staff went to “Us” Magazine.)


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I cannot shake this feeling that something needs to be done.

Something is due. An assignment. A paper.

It’s like having phantom limb pain – I’m having phantom assignment pain!

But nothing is due! I made it! I can now officially write “BSN” after my name! As of the 15th I am a graduate of the University of Wisconsin – Green Bay Program in Professional Nursing.

I actually haven’t seen my new title in writing yet, so I’ll write it here:

Kim McAllister, RN, BSN

Now that’s what I’m talkin’ ’bout!


It actually took awhile to sink in, because the accomplishment was overshadowed, briefly, by a huge disappointment.

I did not get into the PhD program at Davis.

Talk about feeling like being dropped-kicked in the chest! I can’t describe it any other way.

So there I am, feeling smaller than an itteh bitteh kitteh without a committeh, when what should appear but the reason I was not accepted!

I was “not competitive” with other candidates based on my “Statement of Purpose/written work”.


Not only was I not competitive, but I was not competitive in the area I thought was my biggest strength!

And if I had any sort of an ego before, it’s now so small even Viagra couldn’t revive it.

So much for blogging being my ticket to nursing academia/nirvana.


So. The next step.

Well, it looks like I’ll need to get my PhD via the MSN route, and I am hoping to do that through Cal State.

Trouble is, the admissions are closed until next year.

Good lord, no school for an entire year?

What the hell am I supposed to do with myself?

They say when God closes a door, He opens a window.

The life of a NASCAR groupie is looking mighty good…but something tells me that’s not the open window He has in mind.


  • Rachel

    May 10, 2010 at 3:51 am

    You’re getting awfully close with the NASCAR groupie thing…

    Congrats again on the BSN, sorry you didn’t get into the Davis program

  • Jim ( UK )

    May 10, 2010 at 3:56 am

    Well done Kim ; the other door will open soon .

  • Karen Moeller

    May 10, 2010 at 6:04 am

    Kim, congratulations on the huge accomplishment. I have no doubt you will eventually obtain your PhD.

  • Hand Gel G

    May 10, 2010 at 6:12 am

    Hi Kim
    First of all, may I congratulate you on your success.
    Secondly, I went looking for the parable of the Chinese Farmer to share – an Eastern view of the door closing window opening analogy – the place I found it may useful… there are more needy and deserving places to spend some time and continue learning outside school than NASCAR!
    And if that doesn’t work – may I suggest that a few more twists and turns makes for more interesting racing – – and life.
    Godspeed Kim.

  • RehabRN

    May 10, 2010 at 11:04 am


    Life is bittersweet sometimes.

    Just remember this Yogi-ism…”it ain’t over, ’til it’s over.” Hope all goes well on the next round.


  • the Muse, RN

    May 10, 2010 at 11:40 am


    And, while you’re waiting for the other door(!), peak through some windows! (A-hem), what I mean is there are tons of *other* really GREAT programs for PhD’s in Nursing and MSN’s out there that you could consider and are OPEN when its convenient to YOU. (snort)

    …just because one says “you’re not competitive” does not mean that its so, Sweetie! Shrug it off! Their loss.

    Others wouldn’t pass up such a great enrollment!! GO FOR IT!

  • Chris

    May 11, 2010 at 5:51 am

    Kim, congrats on the BSN, and to echo the Muse, there are a ton of other places and programs out there. I did the MSN then the Post Masters for NP and just go accepted for my DNP. Don’t lock yourself into one place, look around and you will see nothing but doors waiting to be opened.

  • bardiac

    May 11, 2010 at 9:42 am

    With the budget problems, a lot of grad programs let in way smaller classes this year than previously; Davis might have done that. And with the economy, they probably have more applicants. (That’s pretty typical.)

    I hope you can find another program that suits your needs.

  • Heather

    May 12, 2010 at 9:39 am

    Thanks so much for your note of encouragement. I am a dry sponge, just soaking it up. God bless you and your site.

  • Rita Schwab

    May 12, 2010 at 12:26 pm

    Perspective Nurse Kim, perspective!!

    You have a BSN after your name, and three years of excellent knowledge stuffed into your head where there was only… NASCAR ?? before!

    And what will you do for the next year? How about a little inspirational nurse blogging? I for one, have gained a great deal of insight into the nursing profession through your writing, not to mention a few smiles.

    So get yourself to Starbucks and start creating your next blogging masterpiece! I think your many readers are about to have a very educational year.


  • Annemiek

    May 13, 2010 at 3:37 am

    Congratulations on your BSN!!

  • Michelle

    May 14, 2010 at 6:51 am

    Hi there Kim!

    Surely, God opens a window when He closes a door. You just have to look closely at your surroundings, maybe the opportunity is just there waiting for you.

    God bless!

  • Dr Dean

    May 21, 2010 at 11:59 am

    Boogity, Boogity, Boogity, let’s go racing Kim.

    Great job on the BSN! We are all blessed that you have a little more time on your hands to share with us!
    Dr Dean

  • Jon

    May 21, 2010 at 11:45 pm

    Hi Kim, Funny I came across your site here.I was searching about when God closes a door..because I am having a bit of difficulty in becoming a R.N.
    I had started classes again to get my pre reqs done,(I have 2 more to do) then our twins were born.Due to our schedule conflicts and the limited or strict nursing classes here my only option is online classes.The only college offering the classes I need want me to take classes over that I had already done.Other colleges here are fine with my past credits.So I have been feeling a bit stuck and have basically one option if I don’t want to wait years to go back to campus classes.
    I should have done this years ago but It just wasnt right for me then.Now the desire is strong but the doors are seemingly shut.Maybe the lesson is to go thru the doors when they are open because they may not always be open.
    Good luck to you at reaching your goals!

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    May 29, 2010 at 1:16 pm

    Kim, check out This is the very first all online MSN in Nursing Admin program at the University of Texas at Arlington. I am in the very first cohort. Total cost about 13K. Classes last 5 weeks or 10 weeks with 1 week breaks in between. Very intense but there are multiple start dates throughout the year. See what you think.

  • Linda @ somerset

    June 1, 2010 at 7:17 am

    Hi, Kim. I talk about you so much with my family and friends and how committed you are to goals. The important thing is you still have the goal of the PhD. You finished a huge hurdle this year with the BSN and you’ll find a way to finish the PhD. Prayers are with you.

  • Sarah

    June 1, 2010 at 1:26 pm

    That would be great if they offered a 10 week course today.

    I remember feeling a bit frustrated after finishing my 4 year degree, when I realized I could have simply gotten an ADN (rather than BSN), in only 2.

    ADN’s at my job make basically the same amount of money. I guess it will come in handy if I ever want to advance or go back to school though.

    But a 10 week course would be great lol.

  • Sallie

    September 18, 2010 at 7:59 pm


    I’ve not read your blog for quite a long period but tonite I was cruising through and happened upon this post by chance.

    Seeing that is several months old you may have found a program but if not I want to let you know about the BSN to PhD track at The University of Texas Medical Branch at Galveston. It’s my Alma mater and I’m finishing my Masters in Dec in the acute care NP track. Im not sure if the PhD track is online but its worth a look if that is what you want to do. I have several classmates that live in CA and FL for the NP track so i know at least some courses are available online.

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