February 5, 2009, 3:30 pm

Still I Look to Find a Reason to Believe

And here is where Nurse McSouffle-Cap demonstrates her total ignorance of the latest dance craze.

This is such a great photo, because what we see here are two different generations of nurses.

Just look at the lengths of the skirts (and the lack of the caps!).

When I started, I wore the short skirts; how did we ever bend over in those things?

Now, I don’t even wear skirts. Scrubs, baby, all the way!

They look like they are having fun.

We used to have fun.

I could do a mean imitation of Michael Jackson’s dance routine in “Beat It”. Still can, but not in public!


There is something fishy over at Digital Doorway and Keith is responsible for it! Change of Shift is up and Keith takes on “Life in a Fishbowl” (not to be confused with the Eagles’ “Life in the Fast Lane”) as the theme. Lots and lots of submissions this week so be sure to check it out!  Many thanks to Keith for hosting! The next Change of Shift is at This Crazy Miracle Called Life. Send submissions to Amanda at “agmcgaha at gmail dot com” or through Blog Carnival.


I think I may have lost something this week.

I’m not sure what, but I know that there needs to be some changes made in my life.

It isn’t nursing, per se.  I really want to graduate and get started on doing some research; I enjoy studying and wish I could get paid to do it.

But I’m fed up.

I’m fed up with game-playing.

Fed up with trying to maintain a smile when I am being manipulated and both the manipulator and I know it is happening and I am powerless to stop it.

Fed-up with being played against my colleagues, both medical and nursing.

Ready to quit.


I’m tired.

Tired of the over-the-top dramatics when there is real tragedy in life. And in the next room.

Tired of being harassed because the pace of the emergency department does not mesh with the fact that someone has to be at a meeting at 0900.

Tired of being forced to play co-dependent and act in a way that is detrimental to the welfare of my patients.

Tired of the endless explanations to people who have no intention of understanding, let alone caring, what I say.

Tired of giving Oscar-worthy performances of understanding to people who act like jerks.


I’m ready.

Ready for a change to a place where nursing isn’t considered 70% ability to BS and 30% ability to practice actual nursing care.

Ready for a change to a place where the technology of the 21st century is embraced, and not coming two years down the road, maybe, if we’re lucky.

Ready to go where the ER is not the red-headed stepchild while the rest of the facility is touted as the greatest thing since the invention of television.


I have just reached my tipping point.

Maybe my education has opened my eyes to situations I could have ignored before.

Maybe I am burning out. Again.

Maybe it will pass. Again.


I still love nursing.

I’d still do it all again.

I just don’t have it in me to write an optimistic post right now.

Maybe tomorrow.


I know, let me put it this way.

The world is made up of Apple, and I am working for Microsoft.

I don’t know if things would be any better elsewhere.

Still I look to find a reason to believe

They would be.

January 30, 2009, 10:07 am

Lord, I’m-a-Goin’ to NASCAR Heaven

Oh hai!

Actually, I have nothing of value to impart on nursing at the moment.

I must finish reading my Nursing Research text and the first chapter in my Intro to Muslim American studies text.

I would have studied at work but patients kept coming in.

How rude!

I really hate it when work interferes with my life.

And man, it’s really been a pain in the rear these last few nights.


Take a good loooong look at the gorgeous hunk of male genes in this photograph.

Because that is who I get to meet IN PERSON in June.

You are looking (or reading) at the proud owner of a Platinum Freakin’ Pass for the Infineon Raceway Nascar race in June.

And they are only selling 200 of them, split between the KASEY KAHNE and another guy (Kevin Harvick, if you must know).

That means Kasey and Kim and only a few dozen other people in the same room!

I got work to do!

  • Get contacts. No glasses with Kasey Kahne. No way. No how.
  • Keep losing weight. Yes, I’m old enough to be his mother, but I don’t have to look like it!
  • Buy super stunning digital camera with mega zoom lens and practice with it before June so I can take so many photos I’ll put Flicker out of business (iPhone is nice, but this requires a pro outfit).
  • Buy cutest Kasey Kahne/Budweiser swag I can find to wear.
  • Find a way to sew bib into said swag so that drooling will not be noticeable.
  • Practice saying, “Hi, Kasey!” until it comes out natural and precludes me saying “uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh” when introduced.

I have met Steve Perry, three generations of Journey members and Jeff Scott Soto in person.

I managed to act like a normal, adult woman and did not embarrass myself.

As far as I know.

This is different!

It’s Kasey Kahne, people! 

KASEY KAHNE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I now return you to my regularly scheduled blog.

January 27, 2009, 7:22 pm

Girls Just Wanna Have Fun – at Grand Rounds!


Maybe girls just wanna have fun, but obviously there is no fun to be had at this facility!

No Taco Bell or Burger King for anyone in this place!

Why are toys from home risky to the parents? Somebody gonna steal the Rock ’em, Sock ’em Robots?

And goodness forbid that the patients have any money! They might try to sneak out and buy food or toys!

Heck, these days you can’t even stop someone from using a cell phone as they stand in front of a “Please do not use your cellphone” sign!

Not to mention the patients who have had a Double Whopper with Cheese, a large fry and a Super-sized Coke between triage and getting roomed.

And we have immediate bedding!

Ever tried getting the “history of present illness” out of someone chowing down on a Chalupa?


Grand Rounds is over at ChronicBabe.com this week and the theme is…

“Totally Babelicious!”

All women, all the time!

Because we all are Babes!

I, ahem, am the “studious” babe who just happens to have a crush on a Nascar driver young enough to be her son (Daytona 500 in 18 days, folks!).

So in honor of the guys who put not only the word “babelicious”, but “schwing” into our conciousness, I give you Wayne and Garth’s Top Ten Babelicious Babe list.

Seriously, if you have not seen Doc Gurley’s video about “The Lost Tampon”, you have got to get over to Grand Rounds. It’s the first link. It’s a classic!


Speaking of studious, I decided enough of this school stuff!  I want my BSN ASAP.

I was fortunate enough to get into the Nursing Research class at UWGB and I do believe it is going to kill me.

Statistics was a Lindsey Buckingham concert compared to this class.

In addition I am taking “Introduction to Muslim-American Studies” and “Religions of the World” because sometime after 1978, they decided that an ethnic studies class and a world culture class should be required for the BSN.

Nine units total.

Ah, who am I kidding?  I love studying.  I am such a nerd.

The goal? Finish the BSN by December of 2009.

Then, if they will have me, go straight to the University of California, San Francisco for a PhD in Nursing with a focus on Health Policy.

You see, I want to study nurses. I have a theory about nursing vis-a-vis the retention of nurses through the career cycle. There is a lot of nursing research being done on patient care and best practices, but not as much on the nursing profession.

I want to study us.  Nurses can’t utilize best practices if there aren’t enough nurses to go around.

And so I will devote my academia career (as soon as I get one) to the study of the nursing profession itself.

Sounds rather hoity-toity, doesn’t it?

Okay, so I’m a hoity-toity nerd!

Time to crack the books, babes!

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My name is Kim, and I'm a nurse in the San Francisco Bay area. I've been a nurse for 33 years; I graduated in 1978 with my ADN. My experience is predominately Emergency and Critical Care, and I have also worked in Psychiatry and Pediatrics. I made the decision to be a nurse back in 1966 at the age of nine...

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